Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Rachel Getting Married

We just finished watching "Rachel Getting Married". The prodigal daughter, Kim, (Anne Hathaway in her Oscar winning role) gets out of rehab temporarily to attend her older sister Rachel's wedding. It's messy. It's emotional. It's realistic. Kim is able to connect (through a painful process) with some of her family but sadly not with others. But you feel her longing, her pain and her lostness. Despite it all, she is honest and her very presence throws a wrench in her family's avoidence of their issues. They can't ignore Rachel.

I like the movie because it explores the relationships within the family and the family about to begin without getting preachy or obvious. Everyone has a story to tell, and they don't always tell it in their words. Some things are beyond words. We just want these people we are watching to heal, to reach out and to love each other because the movie makes us love them all.

I am in the middle of reading "The Prodigal God" by Tim Keller, and will probably re-watch "Rachel" after I am finished. Anyway, the amazing wedding itself is worth a second watch. We see glimpses of different facets of their creative nuptials developing throughout as the plot develops, and I really enjoyed seeing the final event.

Sunday, March 22, 2009


"Evangeline" by Emmylou Harris and The Band, The Last Waltz documentary by Scorcese.

Dylan is releasing a new CD "Together For Life". He was working on a ballad for an upcoming movie and was so inspired, he kept writing new songs, enough for a new album. For an interview with Bobby about the new masterpiece, find it here.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Don't Look Back

Last March, a year ago, I was swimming well. Everytime I got in the pool, which was frequently, I felt stronger and faster than the time before. Our gym started a competition for most visits in a month, and I started going to the pool almost everyday. I didn't win (my husband Dennis won, probably by a couple of days). In June, my gym started a competition for amount of laps swam in three months and I knew this was a reachable goal for me. I don't have to go fast, but I could put quite a few laps.

Then one day, it all came crashing down. I was spending more time in the pool, squeezing it in before work and other commitments, but rushing through post swim time in the locker time, aiming to shower and dress quickly. My hair was often wet for hours at work. I didn't pay attention to fine details, like the care of my feet and I ended up with horribly dry skin that cracked and I had a nasty infection that the ER docs said that needed to heal quickly or I'd have to get an amputation.

The heavy dosage of antibiotics caused my kidneys to shut down, and a chain reaction insued that involved blood pressure meds that I was allergic to and couldn't breathe or made me swell. Even after all the drama was over (and after several trips to the ER, the most I've ever had in my life), it was depressing to realize that I had to start all over again with my swim workout goals. I was never Dara Torres, the 41 year old Olympian, to begin with, but it was something to me to swim a mile in 45 minutes without stopping.

I don't go to the pool as often and I take care of myself much better. I don't push myself too hard, but I am working with what I've got. And today,for the first time in months, I swam my mile under an hour. After it was over, I realized I could have kept on going, but the muscles were getting weary. That's okay. I take a look at my feet. They are normal. Actually, better than that. They are perfect. I've come a long way and I'm not going back.

Monday, March 16, 2009

A Fellowship

I read only two of Henri J.M. Nouwen's books over the years, one having a profound effect on me after college. The other was a gift from a Korean friend a few years ago after she graduated.
For me, reading the late Catholic priest's contemporary words is sometimes hard. I am both touched and intimidated by his vulnerability and his big heart of love both towards God and towards people. Sometimes, it's too painful. His thoughts are genuine, humble and from a sweet compassion-- the depth of which I find comforting and convicting at the same time. Nouwen's total spiritual surrender reveals the direction I am to go, but often I am unwilling. When I put the book down I feel inadequate in my faith and in my relationship with God.

Of late, I've been wanting to try again after reading about him in other blogs. Nouwen's life wasn't easy. It appears he was a very lonely person, even though he was surrounded by men and women who loved him and whom he loved. So, as I'm giving him another go, I see that loneliness and the acceptence of that loneliness. We are not that much different. I no longer feel alienated from the spiritual giant of Nouwen, but a fellowship.

"We often wonder what we can do for others, especially for those in great need. It is not a sign of powerlessness when we say: "We must pray for one another." To pray for one another is, first of all, to acknowledge, in the presence of God, that we belong to each other as children of the same God...not competitors or rivals." --Here and Now

Monday, March 09, 2009

Library, Chapter 3

I was browsing around Target and ran across a copy of Domino's Book of Decorating. I liked it because it was different, modern and had a lot of real design information. Also, it didn't take long to see that the eclectic style included using old stuff along with the new. I've been doing that for years, making my garage sale furniture work and blend in a room. My book budget, however, has already been tapped out for a while. I couldn't afford to buy it. And coming to Target to read the book wasn't realistic.

A week or so ago, while looking over recent returns at the local library, I ran across the decorating book again. I can read it for free. I also found two novels I've been wanting to read for months, also available free of charge. As long as I take it back on time. How cool is that?

I also checked out a couple of other non fiction titles. One about world travel "Around the World in 80 Dinners", another about music and one really informative and interesting book about grammar. My library card has saved me hundreds of dollars. What a deal.

Saturday, March 07, 2009

Romantic Song--Besame Mucho

By Rosa Passo, who has a voice like an angel. I have the CD, but I can't find it...

TV Clip

Dharma gets an audition, while her husband Greg bows out. He was tired of the garage band scene. I like Dharma's gutsiness, her courage takes her to interesting places. It is nice to see some positive energy during some dark times. And I think that actress really is playing the drums. Enjoy.